Monday, March 13, 2017

Leaving A Piece of Me In Ireland, Literally


On Wednesday a week and a half into our stay at our second host, my abdomen began to hurt. The sharp pain throbbed with irregular bursts in the upper left of my abdomen, just below my ribcage. It began while we were out planting trees on a muddy hillside. Every time I bent to press a baby tree into the mud, the pain increased. I spent an hour and a half in bed during lunch and felt better enough to continue work until dark.

The Baby Trees Pre-Planting

          Over the next handful of days, the intermittent pain persisted and increased. After googling symptoms and asking friends, I was pretty convinced that I was just suffering from severe gas. I didn’t eat much over the next three days. After throwing up Friday night and waking up Saturday with no improvements, I decided to go to a local clinic to make sure everything was ok. 

I waited only fifteen minutes to see a physician. Upon hearing my symptoms, he asked if I was experiencing heartburn, I said, “No, I don’t think so”. He shone a light down my throat proclaiming that he could see some marks on the back of my throat. After lightly pressing on my abdomen, he diagnosed me with excess gastric acid, wrote me a prescription for an acid suppressant, and sent me on my way. I probably spent less than ten minutes with him.

After swallowing an acid suppressant pill, I went to lie in bed. About  hour later and halfway through watching Caddyshack, the pain  moved to the lower right and spiked to a suddenly unbearable level. I cried out, but Kyle and our host couldn’t hear me – they were in the main house across the driveway from our bedroom.  I tried to sit up, struggling to pull on pants and stuff my sockless feet into shoes. I stumbled down the stairs and across the drive, bent over in pain. Kyle saw me through the window and came out to meet me.

Within five minutes, we were all in the car with packed backpacks, speeding towards Galway and the nearest hospital (a forty minute drive). Every bump in the road hurt excruciatingly. I could breathe in only short, sharp bursts. Fifteen minutes into the drive, my hands and feet began to tingle unnaturally. Within a few minutes, my hands had seized up into unnatural locked positions on my thighs and I couldn’t unlock them. The tingling migrated to my torso, I panicked. Kyle told me to take deep breaths. After five minutes of controlled breathing, movement slowly returned to my hands.

When we arrived at the Galway Clinic, I could only shuffle as far as through the entrance before the pain became too great to walk. Luckily, there was a group of wheelchairs by the door. Kyle helped me into one and wheeled me to the emergency room.

Upon hearing that we were American tourists, the receptionist was hesitant to admit me. She told us that without Irish insurance, they could only admit us if we paid €3,000 up front.  I promptly vomited onto the floor. 

While Kyle ran back to the car to grab his wallet, they wheeled me back behind the desk to a bed. After a much more thorough and painful abdomen examination than my first, a doctor diagnosed me with likely appendicitis and hooked me up to some morphine. Meanwhile, Kyle was sorting out payment with the receptionist and our travel insurance company. As my temperature rose, I underwent a series of blood tests and a CT scan to confirm that my appendix  was inflamed and there was fluid loose in my abdomen.

A half an hour before I was scheduled to go into surgery, Kyle and the receptionist were still sorting out payment with the reluctant insurance company. At one point, the receptionist got on the phone and shouted at them, “They’re not lying to you! She needs to go into surgery now!”

Morphined-Up and Ready for Surgery
(Photo Courtesy of Kyle Ackerman)

          At 7:15 PM a nurse wheeled me off to the surgery, telling me that the surgery should only take 30 minutes or so. On the surgery bed, three different people asked me the same questions about my teeth: “Do you have any crowns, bridges or other expensive dental work?”  and “Do you have any lose or broken teeth?” The last thing I remember is the nurse pressing a mask over my mouth that blew in air. She held the mask down so firmly, I struggled to exhale.

When I awoke, I saw the clock and it read: 10:30 PM. I felt disoriented, wasn’t the surgery supposed to take 30 minutes?! I mumbled to the nurse, “Did it go ok?” She said that it was really yucky inside me but I was fine. My lungs felt heavy and I coughed a little. The nurse began going on about some medication I should take for my throat. I didn’t know what she was talking about.

When I was wheeled to my room, I saw Kyle’s worried face and began to cry.

Out of Surgery, Alive but Pale
(Photo Courtesy of Kyle Ackerman)

          The next day the surgeon said that given the “gangrenous state” of the fluid in my abdomen, he would estimate that my appendix had burst as much as 24 – 36 hours before the surgery.

Kyle Enjoying His Paper in My SUPER FANCY Hospital Room

          I spent five more days in the hospital as they pumped me full of painkillers and antibiotics, monitoring for any signs of systemic infection. Luckily, by Thursday, besides the three small incision sites and the nine staples that held the cuts together, I was basically as good as new. 

Showing Off My Bandages 

          It was a relief when we learned that our travel insurance covered all but $100 of the €7,500 bill. Crazily enough, this bill is actually extraordinarily cheap for an appendectomy with abscess and FIVE nights in a hospital. 

             Although I’m healed and wwoofing fulltime, I do, sometimes, miss my appendix. J

An Elegy for my Appendix

Oh appendix!

No one knows why we grow you:
you could cultivate good microbe goo.
Yet I can’t help but feel
you’re much more than a small eel.
I fear I’ve lost an irreplaceable guru.

All That's Left Are the Scars :) 

Sunday, February 5, 2017

10 Practical Lessons from an Irish Farm:

Pregnant Highland Cow and Yearling Calf
(Photo Courtesy of Kyle Ackerman)
     

1.     Hay and straw are not interchangeable substances. The first is edible, the second is not.

2.     While planting baby trees, talk to them. They’ll grow healthier.

3.     Driving a tractor is easier than driving a manual car. 

4.     Within four hours of a calf’s birth, it must drink its mother’s milk in order to ingest essential natural antibiotics.

5.     Goats poop A LOT. Every day. Every hour. Every where.

6.     Don’t forget to wear your Wellies.

7.     But not in the house.

8.     You will always step in mud and animal feces. (Refer to previous three lessons.)

9.     Pee on the trees. It provides them with precious nutrients.  

10. When feeling homesick, watch Fast Times at Ridgemont High in bed and gorge yourself on bourbon creme biscuits. 



Glossary:
Wellies = Rubber Rainboots
Biscuits = Cookies  

Sunday, January 29, 2017

The Real Secret of the Stones

I spend most of my time at Milbeg Arts building a stone column. To gather stones for this project, we deconstruct a 200-year-old stone wall made of flat greenish brown siltstones held together by nothing more than mud and the root systems of hundreds of small plants and blackberry bushes. We stack these rocks along the backside of our cottage from largest on the right to smallest on the left.

Plant Roots Hold Together a 200-Year-Old Wall
(Photo Courtesy of Kyle Ackerman)
The Rock Pile Behind Our Cottage
Before beginning to build, I listen to some basic instructions:
1)   Find the corner stones first, and then work inward.
2)   Find rocks that are about the same thickness and flat on top.
3)   Make sure your rocks don’t wobble.
When finding the corner stones, I place and replace stones until I find the best 90-degree corner that fits without a wobble.  The next rocks find their place through imprecise intuition and the use of cement.  My ultimate goal is to build to approximately the same level for each layer. 

Adding the Cement
(Photo Courtesy of Kyle Ackerman)
The process calls for thinking in specifics and generalities at the same time: the specifics of 90-degree corners and the generalities of basically straight lines and almost level layers. It is a puzzle game where being too caught up in the specific fits will infinitely stall you, but ignoring the specific shapes completely will leave you with an indistinguishable, unstable blob.  
I know the former dilemma well. In times of extreme stress, I fixate on small details and the smallest decision paralyzes me because I give the decision of what I should eat for lunch the same importance as I might to the decision of what I should do in a moment of life threatening danger. This, at its worst, can result in the feeling that my world is constantly on the brink of collapse.
While building my column, I learn quickly that if you try to build an 8-foot column out of only small stones or only large stones, it will collapse. It is built best by using mostly large stones with a few small stones creating stability in between the imperfect fits.

Building Away
(Photo Courtesy of Kyle Ackerman)

I began building at the place indicated by my lower hand.
(Photo Courtesy of Kyle Ackerman) 

The building process is about stability, overarching lines, and compromise. You must give things their proper weight. Each decision adds up to a whole life, but the small ones—like lunch—usually won’t change its general shape.
I am good at rock building, “a natural” in our host’s words. After two weeks of hard work, the layers of my column rise above my head to eaves of the roof.  I find myself wishing that my life’s next steps rose before me so solidly high.

The Finished Product
(Photo Courtesy of Kyle Ackerman)
Applying what stone building has taught me, I come up with these questions:

What are the corner stones of my life?  
What is the general shape will they make when they fit together?
What will stabilize the imperfect fits?
Which pieces fit together best now?
Which need to wait for later?

I can answer the first question easily.
Education.
Nature.
Movement.
Hands-on.
Stewardship.
People.
Creativity.
Writing.
Teaching Consent.
Women’s Empowerment.
These are the corner stones of my life.

The other answers don’t come as easily. Luckily, my building has taught me that I shouldn’t get too caught up on exact fits or perfect synthesis. Inevitably my life will contain rough edges, the layers will never be perfectly parallel, small parts may fall apart, and I may have to rebuild. Regardless, if I keep on building, decision after decision, mixing precision with intuition, eventually, I’ll construct a life of which I am proud.

Sunday, January 22, 2017

Milbeg Arts: Teaching the Art of Sustainability

The Entrance to Milbeg Arts (we've drank tea out of that polka-dotted teapot). 
In Bantry, a smiling woman with a wide-brimmed leather hat and dirt covered jeans greets us with a warm hug. This is Annie, our first WWOOF host. After stuffing our bags into her car, Annie drives us to the dump to drop off some trash. Chatting a mile a minute, she tells us that she tries to live waste free by composting, recycling, and reusing everything. For this reason, she doesn’t produce enough trash to pay for a collection service. Parking the car, she asks us to help her to look through the wood scrap heap at the back of the dump. While searching for a doorframe and some trim for Annie’s latest project, we pick up some wood scraps for firewood. In this process, Annie joyfully saves a perfectly good basket from rubble. And thus, she introduces us to her sustainable lifestyle.  

A Poetic Lesson About Water Conservation From Milbeg Arts :)

About 20 years ago, Annie bought a five-acre piece of land in Coomhola, Ireland. The property held the remains of a 250-year-old farmhouse and several decrepit storage buildings made of rocks haphazardly piled into a few walls. Annie, a woman of vision, looked at the mess and saw its potential to become a community arts center for art classes and performance arts festivals.
Over several years, Annie built the farmhouse back up to its two-story height. With the help of family and friends, she tiled the roof with slate tiles, installed electricity and running water, and finally, fashioned a cozy home for herself. Almost all the windows and doors were salvaged.   After three years of commuting back and forth from England to Ireland, Annie completed the restoration.


Annie's Restored Home:
In order to save energy, they hang dry all clothing.
(Photo Courtesy of Kyle Ackerman) 

Not long after Annie moved to Ireland fulltime, she began to host WWOOFers. She estimates to have hosted over 500 volunteers since the late 1990s. Everything from the greenhouse to the compost toilets to the garden walls and tool sheds have been built by volunteers. This includes the small stone house we have called home since arriving. The space used to be just a few broken down walls. Over six years, WWOOFer built up the walls, attached a roof, and insulated the walls with sheep’s wool. Now, the WWOOFer house has a full kitchen, running water, electricity, and excellent Wi-Fi.
The Building of the WWOOFer House.
(Courtesy of the WWOOF Ireland Newsletter)



Hanging in the WWOOFer House.
(Photo Courtesy of Kyle Ackerman)
Nine years ago, Annie’s community arts center plans were put on hold. After Annie’s own WWOOFing trip to New Zealand, she was inspired to found the official WWOOF Ireland organization. In the time since, she worked incredibly hard to nourish sustainability and cultural exchange in Ireland by running WWOOF Ireland out of her home. Now, the WWOOF Ireland website has 473 farm hosts and close to 4,000 WWOOFers.

A schoolteacher at heart, Annie has donated her property to the learning process of volunteers. The place is filled with the disjointed growing pains of hundreds of passionate and often, inexperienced students. Some walls are slanted and tiling uneven; a dozen soon-to-be finished projects are scattered about the property. Despite the visual chaos, communal ideals hold the physical environment together. Milberg Arts may not yet host painting classes, but it will always welcome pupils interested in the art of sustainable, self-sufficient, do-it-yourself life skills.

This is a book I found at the Bantry public library that I thought
 accurately summed up the lesson of our first WWOOF host.